I love living with Audi. Every day, I am so grateful to be here, away from the stress that was plaguing my life before. As I mentioned in my last entry, I went to Miami for a week to work with Dustin at World Atlantic Airlines. Well, at first I was dreading going back, simply because I had a feeling of what the week would be like. My instincts proved to be correct.

First, I’d like to mention that my mother was feeling very bad on Sunday when I got to Miami. We found out about two days later that she had a clot in one of her arteries: Hence, she had suffered a mild heart attack. She turned out just fine, thank goodness, but they sure made certain not to let me forget that she “almost died” whenever I needed a guilt trip. Whenever either of them started grating my nerves, and I acted accordingly, one or the other would bring up that I don’t care about them, about how she “almost died”. It got especially bad on Friday.

Audi’s sister had told him about a place where we could get fish for really cheap. The only problem was that it came in somewhat big boxes: think Costco style. So, I bought them on Friday during my lunch break and headed over to my parents’ place. In the process of trying to fit the boxes in the freezer, my mother tells both my father and I to shut up and let her do it. I tell her that I have an idea too, and I asked, “Don’t you want to hear my idea?” She, of course, says… No.  I get even more frustrated. They, in turn, got more frustrated with me. My mother walks off, pissed off that we didn’t do things her way. Long story short (too late!), she storms off, my father yells at me that I don’t care about how my mother “almost died” this week. I do care, of course. I don’t need it rubbed in my face with every disagreement or fight, though. So, I yell at my father to go sit down and let me finish putting the boxes in myself.

He goes, sits with my mother, and says out loud, “She’s such an actress”…. That was the last straw for me. My mother is the BIGGEST actress you’ve ever seen. This woman should have won at least 10 Emmys by now. I lost it. I stormed over to them and said, “How dare you call me an actress? She’s the biggest one of all. All she ever does is throw guilt trips on me whenever we fight or she disagrees with something I do. And then you wonder why I left in the first place? I’m just letting you know right now, I’m leaving tomorrow.  Good luck seeing me again after that.” I went back to work, and things went as they normally do there. I made plans with my friend Chris, so that I wouldn’t have to see them at all that evening. I figured I’d get home when they were already in bed.

They must have thought I was kidding about leaving a day earlier than I had planned to. I wasn’t.

Saturday morning… I wake up to find out my family, who had said they were going to come down to see me, weren’t going to come at all. Great. I got out of bed and got dressed for nothing. Oh well. Around 1:30 I went to visit Audi’s mom and niece, since they had been asking Audi about me. I played Wii with Mina, his niece, and his mom made me an awesome lunch; a better one than I think my own mother would have.

Around 3:30, I left there, went back to my parent’s place… and proceeded to pack up the car. My parents helped me pack up the car a bit, but it was mostly me since I didn’t want their help, to be honest. My mother, in her usual fashion, put on a sad face, gave me a hug, and told me she loved me. Her typical way of apologizing without ever having to soil her lips with the words, “I’m sorry.” I didn’t buy it, and I almost never do.

I drove off, and I’ve been ecstatic since. I’m so grateful for that week I spent with them, because it truly helped me open my eyes. I thought I was going to feel sad or nostalgic about moving away. But now? I can honestly say it’s the best thing that has ever happened to me.

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Oh yes, oh yes I do! I’ve already made a few playlists so I can listen to my tunes at work. The ones I have right now are Alternative, Ambient, Electronica, Instrumental, JRock, and 80s. I’ve also added a few apps: Tap Tap Revenge, the NIN app, and Labyrinth (Lite version). I bought a case for it at Best Buy today during my lunch break, and I bought two more on eBay when I got home. This one cover that I bought is just incredible. It has the face from the painting “The Scream” by Edvard Munch in a random repeating pattern.

I need to start sending out my resume next week since it will probably be my last week working with Dustin. That’s the problem with temp jobs, they don’t last too long! Haha. I really enjoy working there, but I feel more at home doing artsy stuff. Speaking of which, my friend Sandra wanted me to work on a non-conventional, fantasy inspired family portrait for them. I’m planning to go this weekend to photograph stock images for the piece. I’ll most likely post the finished piece either in the commissions section of my site or on my deviantart account… or both. =P

I did a search for my Match.com interest’s username, thinking that he probably uses the same name for other things just like I do. I ended up finding his website and his facebook. I sent him a friend request, so I hope he adds me or replies or something. LOL. I will admit, I have just a slight crush. But I’m not going to assume anything until we actually meet, IF we ever do. Meh. Here’s to hoping.

Anyway, I’m done for now. Ciao.

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Well, I just added a Shelfari widget to my blog, and I figured since I’m already logged in… I might as well write an entry.

Everything is finalized with MiamiCrete and their website. You can now see the final product at miamicrete.com.  In a lot of ways, I am glad that it is over and done with. I think the site came out really great, but now I must move on to other projects and plans.

I’m slightly torn. I want to send my resume to companies so that I can get hired and have a steady income. At the same time, I DESPISE the idea of working under anyone. I like being my own boss, and doing projects someone else is going to require of me makes me feel like I’m in school all over again. Meh. For the time being, I’m financially well off enough that I can debate and deliberate on what path to take: Make my own business, or work for someone else’s. Bleh.

I do need a more steady and reliable cash flow, though. I can’t just rely on people randomly finding my images on the net and paying me for them all the time. I plan to move out of here soon, so I can’t waste too much time thinking.

I went to a reunion last Saturday for the alumni of New World School of the Arts. It was OK except for the fact that it was drizzling for most of the event. Finally, around 8pm or so, it stopped raining. By then, a bunch of people had already left.  The evening was still nice, though. The few that were left (alumni, administrators, the Dean of Visual Arts, etc..) we all went walking down to the beach and it was GORGEOUS. The sand was soft,  the water was nice and cold, and the lights around the area from the buildings illuminated everything. =)

Today, out of sheer boredom, I visited my livejournal account. I started reading some of the first entries I submitted, back in 2004. It boggles my mind how much I’ve grown up in only five years. My manner of speech, my mentality, my life… everything has evolved. Don’t get me wrong, that’s certainly a plus. It just takes me by surprise. In 2004 I was whining and pining over my ex Pleas, a man that never EVER deserved my love or friendship. Now, I am sad about Audi, but I am so much stronger and mentally capable of dealing with heartache. Heh.

I don’t know what else to say, other than that I’m listening to Siouxsie and the Banshees. Ciao.

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Jesus, finally I am DONE with the lay0ut. Thankfully, I didn’t need to learn a whole lot of PHP (even though I know that eventually, I will have to).

I had the hardest time doing the simplest thing. I wanted to put the search field within the title bar, and for some reason, I just couldn’t do it! I tried moving the code around, making new divs, and god knows what else for at least 2 hours. Finally, I just said, “Fuck it, I’m going to take a shower.” So I did, and I felt much more relaxed afterwards. After a little while, I came back to the computer… and I suddenly figured out. I had to put the search bar code in the ONE place I hadn’t tried before. >:( Bah. Well, at least I figured it out.

I’m currently in the process of adding and editing all the widgets to the sidebar and linking all my blog buddies. I’ve been trying to find those cute little icons that people use to link to their myspace, facebook, photobucket, etc etc… I may just contact someone who has them and ask if I can borrow them for my own blog. :/

I hope this was not all in vain, and that at least some people will comment on this blog.  I’ll have to start advertising it to all my friends.

And now, I must get some nourishement.

Until next time.

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Voila! My first entry in my very first self-made (somewhat) blog! No more Livejournal or MySpace journals for me, boy. Hoorah! I had seen a bunch of sites with the “WordPress” copyright at the bottom, and became curious about making my very own blog on my own domain. I don’t know if I would have been able to make one when I was still using Malicia‘s subdomain, but I knew that with my own domain, I could definitely do it.

Thanks so much to WordPress for their ingenious coding and support.

One of the main reasons I wanted my own blog: Recently, a pixel club I’m a member of, the Quilting Bee, had an official Blog Day, where all the members wrote an entry talking about why and how much they love the club. I felt left out, since I didn’t have a real blog of my own. Another reason is that I grew tired of the massive amount of idiots I had to deal with on Livejournal. On my own blog, I have no rules. I can speak my mind freely (within reason) and not have to worry about being banned or removed for “bad behavior”. So suck on that, LJ admins!

I’ve spent most of my day just learning all the ins and outs of the coding WordPress uses. I think I am going to have to force myself to learn PHP, even though I am dreading it. But, you gotta do what you gotta do.

As for my personal life, I don’t want to divulge too much yet, since really… I don’t know what’s happening myself, really. All I’ll say is that I went to the doctor today for what may potentially be a serious problem. =P Here’s to hoping it’s nothing major and I’ll be just fine.

Anyway, back to coding this thing. Woot.

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