Life is hectic and crazy and cruel and generally fucked up sometimes. I’m tired, and I won’t have it anymore. I am too much of a good person to put up with all this non-stop bullshit. Yea, you guessed it. It’s over… again. And this time, I didn’t even get the benefit of being TOLD I’m being broken up with.

BUT WHATEVER.

School is almost done. I have about two weeks left, and then I go to New York! It will be nice to get away from this fucking city for four days, if only to escape all the fucking baggage this city brings me.

MegaTV (a spanish channel in South Florida) interviewed me and three of my fellow graduating classmates for a news report on our BFA show. They haven’t uploaded the clip onto their site, but I am hoping to digitize the VCR copy I made off the TV. I’ll most likely upload it to my YouTube account.

A digital still from one of my BFA videos was printed in this month’s Gallery Guide: Southeast. They messed up the exhibition my work was actually in, but they spelled my name right… so I don’t care. heh.

Um, that’s pretty much it, I guess. Ciao.

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I’ve finished the work on time. The frames are ready, the DVD’s have been burned, and the final price for the installation and removal of the work has been set. All I need to do now is finalize with the carpenters when they’ll be able to install the work. They wanted to start tomorrow, but I don’t think that will be possible. The gallery already told us we only had the last week before the show to install our work. I am meeting up with them tomorrow, though, so it will all be worked out.

My goodness, I can’t believe it’s almost here. So much planning and working and rethinking and working and… *sigh* I can’t wait for the 14th now. Even more than that, I can’t wait for the trip to New York! I’m so glad I bought the Rebel because now I can take a lot of awesome photos.

It’s interesting. A few weeks ago, I finally bit the bullet and told my mother that Audi and I weren’t together anymore, months after we’d broken up. She asked me how I was feeling and I said I was fine. I told her I was just too busy to cry about it. Tonight, as I was driving home from the computer lab at school, I was listening to “Missing” by Everything But the Girl in the car… and I started crying a little. I was thinking of Audi, and I realized… I’m not too busy to cry about it now.

Meh. I’ll leave it at that. Ciao.

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Man, the BFA show is almost here. And there’s still things to do. CHRIST, why do we have to have other classes? Why can’t we just prepare for the show and that’s it? :rofl: UGH. I need to get the three frames, and the plywood to make the false wall. Once I have that, I’m set. Hopefully, the exhibitions manager at CIFO will contact me today so that I can pass by the gallery and take the necessary measurements.

Thankfully, the installation can be done before March 14th, but I’m aiming on having everything done by the 6th, and then any necessary adjustments can be done by the 14th. My biggest concern is making the false wall, but hopefully my wood shop skills will kick in for that.  heh.

Oh man, it’s exciting, but it’s also nerve-wracking. I’ve been so mentally busy, I haven’t had time to cry about my situation with Audi. Oh, and speaking of that… I finally told my mother that we’d broken up in October 2008. I figured, if Audi has already started moving on and begun dating someone else, there’s no point in pretending that we haven’t REALLY broken up. My mom had no reaction either way, and told me that if it’s meant to be, yadda yadda. It was a weight lifted off my shoulders, that’s for sure.

As for Audi, I’ve cut all communication with him, but not by choice. If it were up to me, he’d be right back in my arms again. But I don’t want to tie him down. He’s a grown man, and he can make his own decisions about what or who he wants. As much as I love him, I need to let him go and pray he comes back to me someday. :shrug:

Anyway, here’s my much needed update on my life. Back to work! Ciao.

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I have nothing of interest or value to say, really. I’ve been feeling pretty blah today, more so than usual. I miss Audi like crazy, I’m worried about the BFA show, I’m emotionally and mentally drained… basically, BLAH.

I’m going to get cracking on those BFA videos again tonight. I also need to contact or visit the gallery space where the show is going to be, CIFO, and find out what kind of monitors they have available. That way, I can build and/or buy the necessary tools and supplies to make the frames.

I recently “discovered” this music production company called Immediate Music. They make some incredibly amazing songs, especially their collection of epic and orchestral/choir songs. I sent in a request to become a member, but they haven’t contacted me back yet. =/

Anyway, I suppose I’m done. Oh, and have I mentioned I miss Audi?

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I’ve been non-stop this past week. Thank goodness that three of my classes start at 2:00pm, because if not, I wouldn’t be getting ANY sleep. I’ve been going to bed early, and getting up early, trying to take advantage of each day. I can’t wait for Friday when I can finally sleep in. :rofl:

I’ve also been pretty down in the dumps… a.k.a. depressed. A lot of shit has been weighing on my mind, and it’s been affecting me badly. Yet another reason why I haven’t blogged in a few days.

My Senior Review went great on Friday. I got some really good feedback, and it seemed like they enjoyed my idea. Hooray for me! Now, I just need to kick it into high gear and finish everything.

I’m COMPLETELY dreading the fact that Valentine’s Day is coming. I’ve only had ONE decent Valentine’s Day, and it was with someone I don’t even speak to anymore. So miserably fucking sad. My dream is to spend it with Audi, even if we aren’t dating again by then. But I don’t think I’ll be that lucky. :shrug:

I’ve been working on a new art piece, but I’m stuck. I made a stock request with a fellow DA member, and she said she’d take the pics two days ago. Now, I’m getting anxious because the piece is almost done, and I NEED those images. =/ I’m sure you’re wondering why I don’t just find a similar stock image, but this is a very specific item so I can’t really do that.

I’ve been listening to InnerPartySystem’s self-titled album non-stop, from beginning to end for the past four days. Every song on it relates to the current circumstances of my life, especially regarding my love life (or lack of one, really). Thank you IPS for making an album to make memories to.

I have nothing else to share, so… bye.

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I pulled it off. I managed to shoot some green screen footage, color key it in After Effects, and make a good preliminary trial of my first video! I say preliminary because I want Alisa, the head of the Visual Arts department, to look at it tomorrow. There are things that still need to be fixed, but thankfully it can all be done by tomorrow. I may have to leave school a little early, OR catch the express bus back home. Woot! Ok, I just have to keep on schedule, and I’ll be fine.

I still need to make the third backdrop for the third video, but that will be easy. I’m going to brainstorm on it tomorrow during the day and hopefully have it done by the evening.

Right now, I’m watching Law and Order: Criminal Intent. I absolutely adore Vincent D’Onofrio. I watch re-runs I’ve seen a million times just because he’s in them. :rofl: I don’t know about the rest of you, but I think that man is so goddamn handsome. I first fell in love with his acting in the movie “The Cell”, where he played the serial killer Carl Stargher. Mmmm. He was just so damn amazing in that role. I believed him. I felt his anger and pain. I think that’s why I enjoy watching him in all his roles. He always puts 100% into all of them.

Anyway, I don’t really have much else to share right now so… ciao!

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OK… I figured things wouldn’t go smoothly for so long. Yes, I have a problem, Houston. It seems that when I record video with my Sony digital camera, the color keying doesn’t work very well. Why? Since I don’t have a controlled lighting situation in my backyard (where the green screen is), the camera automatically adjusts the lighting whenever I walk in front of it. Therefore, it looks green when I’m not in front of the camera… and bright white when I am. Fail. So, I tried my mother’s JVC digital video camera. Now, with this, the footage comes out perfect. However, I do not have the appropriate cable or software to transfer the video to my computer! Brilliant, eh?

I talked to Audi on the phone, and he helped calm me down a bit. After telling him everything that’s happened to me, he helped rationalize everything I need to do and show me that I could easily do everything I need to do if I just pace myself.

So… that’s what I’m doing. Right now, I’m working on an assignment that’s due Monday, and I’ll be working on the footage for the video tomorrow. I also realized that I don’t need to make the video huge. I can make the video 720×480, and I’d be set. So, I’m going to try again with the footage I currently have and see what I can do. ROFL. Craziness, eh?

Anyway, back to work. Ciao.

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Yes. There is a potential nervous breakdown in the works. I told myself I would just be calm and do what I need to do, but there is only a week left until the Senior Review. If all goes as it should this upcoming weekend, then I’ll be perfectly on track. If not, then I’ll be thoroughly fucked. I got some good news this afternoon, though. There are plenty of options available for my green screen fabric at Jo-Ann Fabrics, and it seems I already had After Effects installed in my computer. Oops. :rofl: It’s ok, though, since the disc my friend Sam gave me has the entire Adobe suite. Hence, if there’s ever a program I need, I have it readily available. Woot. I sent the work I already have to the head of my department, and she gave me the A-OK. She’s curious to see more. Hopefully, by next Monday, I’ll have the first video ready to show her. If I can get the green screen, I’ll be set….

I want to go back to making my own art again! Even though this BFA project is my own idea and my own work, it just feels like a school assignment. It doesn’t feel like something that I would do on my own for fun. If it was up to me, I would just have some kick ass photomanips and be done with it. But I know that in order for it to look like I actually DID something, I know they’re going to want videos. Ugh. This is so frustrating that it’s actually starting to make me feel sick… I’m rambling, aren’t I? >_<

MOVING ON! It’s really friggin’ cold right now. And I don’t want to hear anything from you people up north. For me, a Miami born-and-bred girl, THIS IS REALLY COLD. It doesn’t help that the computer room is the coldest room in the whole house. My room is always nice and toasty, though, since it faces the sun for most of the morning and the heat is retained within. Mwahaha.

On a final note, I updated my site yesterday. I put up my latest work, and added the recent article in Advanced Photoshop magazine.

Ciao.

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