I figure today is as good a day as any to update the world on what’s going on in my oh-so-important life.

I’m bed-ridden, again. I was in bed all weekend and feeling like utter shit. On top of it being the time of the month, I was having stomach issues as well. I couldn’t go to the bathroom, and then when I was actually able to, it hurt. I’m really hoping I don’t have to end up going to the hospital, but if this continues, I just might have to. I went to work today, and I started to feel OK around lunchtime. I figured, “maybe I can finally eat”… Bad idea. I bought a Publix sub, ate one half of it, and then the shit hit the fan. I got progressively worse as the afternoon dragged on. My legs would shake every time I would attempt to get out of my chair. My head started spinning and I couldn’t maintain my balance. It got so bad that I texted Audi about how bad I felt. He called me, and told me I needed to get home if I was feeling that bad. I went to a co-worker, and asked if I could go home early. She noticed how bad I looked (and sounded) and said that our boss could drive me home. So he did, and I’m so grateful. As soon as I went in my front door, I couldn’t carry my bags and laptop anymore. My legs were giving out beneath me. I dropped my stuff in my chair, and crawled under the covers. I slept for about 20 minutes, and that definitely helped. Now, here I am…in bed, typing this all out now.

In other news, my birthday just passed on the 22nd of August. Normally, people write a blog about their birthday, but really… I don’t put too much stock in my own birthday. I wrote a message in my deviantART journal talking about how I’d be gone for the weekend, but that’s about it. Anyway, here’s what happened last weekend.

On Saturday morning, I drove over to my cousin’s house so that I could spend time with my family, including my parents who had already been brought over from the train station by my cousin. They cut a cake for me, sang Happy Birthday, and then we all just spent time together until about 4pm. My cousin drove me and my parents to the train station, and I went down to Miami with them. That evening, I went out to dinner with my friend Chris and then we went over to Barnes & Noble. He originally wanted to go see a movie with me, but honestly, there was nothing worth watching. LOL. That’s pretty sad. So he bought me a book called The Dark Arts instead. You can see it here. Unfortunately, I couldn’t find it with the cover I bought it with. =/ Chris also bought me these cute lolita looking arm warmers at Hot Topic (LOLOHNOEZ) that I plan to use in a photo shoot… whenever I get some energy back.

Sunday morning, I took the train back home, and I rested up for the evening to come. I had made plans to go out to dinner with my neighbors and invited my cousin Liz and my brother Nestor along. After much deliberation and indecision, I finally settled on going to this all-you-can-eat oriental buffet called Variasian. (See what they did there?) We all had an awesome time, everyone got along really well, and the food was fantastic. In other words, my birthday weekend was awesome. =)

In other random news…

I got my new license plate finally. I want to get a new cover for it, so that I can replace the Carmax one. Heh. And!! my Lunarpages sign was chosen as one of the weekly winners, so now I’m in the running for the 16gb iPad. Woohoo!

*45 minute intermission*

Ok, just went with Audi down to my job so that I could pick up my car and drive back home. I have done so, safely, without dozing off at the wheel, and now, I am back in bed.

…and that’s pretty much it. I’m tired, achey, and ready for some rest time. Ciao!

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A quick update on what’s been happening lately…

• One of my co-workers was fired. Apparently while I was busting my hump at work, doing what one is supposed to be doing (you know, working), he was visiting personal websites, doing research on rents in other states, and (to my knowledge) chatting up his girlfriend on the web, all on company time. Mind you, this is just the little I was told. There might have been a lot more he was doing that none of us were aware of, but yea… that pissed me off to all hell. I come to work to friggin’ WORK. I need this paycheck, but apparently he didn’t need it that badly since he didn’t seem to take the job very seriously at all. The funniest thing was that when he first started, I started to feel like they valued him more, even though I had been there longer. LOL.

• Audi finally did remove his name from the lease. Yea… Whatever. I guess we’ll just have to see how long this relationship lasts, huh? *sigh* Lately I’ve been feeling like he wants nothing to do with me. I feel like he’s avoiding me, and even though he says he’s not (the few times I’ve brought it up), the distance he’s giving me is loud and fucking clear. For example, right now he’s gonna go clean one of his old rims (in an effort to make it more salable). But why is he doing that NOW? When I’m home? And I need HIM? He can’t do that during the day when I’m at work (earning a fucking living, by the way)? He has to do it now when I’m here and obviously in need of some TLC? UGH. It pisses me off that even with saying it out loud, he just doesn’t get it. Am I constantly doomed to want my partner more than my partner wants me?

• Ballistic Publishing finally notified me about my copy of Exposè 8. I’ll be getting it in the mail in early September. I’m very excited about this, since being printed in this book is a VERY big deal.

• I got my cartilage pierced as well. And unfortunately, since I simply did not know any better, I got it done at Claire’s. This is apparently a very very VERY big No-No. I found out after the fact that the piercing guns they use cannot be sterilized completely, and that the harsh jerking action of the gun itself could cause nerve damage. Ugh. So yea… lesson learned the hard way. Here’s to hoping I was one of the lucky ones and I don’t have any complications. Well, I should say, any MORE complications. For about a week, I thought my left ear might have gotten infected. But the swelling and redness eventually went away with some Wound Wash Saline and heat compress TLC. Right now, all four new piercings are behaving nicely and look like they’re healing properly. *fingers crossed* I’m planning on getting two more lobe piercings, right above the other two, on my birthday. But this time, I’ll be doing it with a PROFESSIONAL piercer and not at fucking Claire’s. I don’t know if I’ll be getting anymore. I’ve been thinking of getting my right eyebrow, but we’ll see about that.

• I’m absolutely IN LOVE with my new car. So far, everything has gone smoothly with the paperwork and red tape surrounding the owning of this new car. Since my mom works for Liberty Mutual, she was able to guide me in all the necessary insurance paperwork, and one of her co-workers was kind enough to handle all my paperwork. I’m going from no payments on my car, to a helluva alot of payments. Haha. Well, it’s not so bad, really. I’m paying $227 monthly for the car, and about $180 monthly for the insurance. Now… off to make it my own. I’m trying to find something cute and VERY lightweight to hang from the rear view mirror. In my T-Bird, I had a little plush bunny rabbit finger puppet, but I left that behind with the car. As much as it pained me to do so, I had to. That, along with the car itself, brought back too many memories of the past. I need to move forward and not look back. I’ll probably go to Walmart or Target tomorrow and see if I can find anything. I did manage to buy a sun visor for the front windshield today, though.

I can’t really think of anything else to discuss. *sigh* I’m gonna go vent my frustrations by killing some demons in Devil May Cry 4.

Ciao!

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I got so wrapped up in my rant about the movie “2012″, I completely forgot I was supposed to talk about my weekend. Hmm. So, here it is. My weekend in a nutshell (somewhat), and then I will continue with what has happened most recently.

On Saturday, Audi dropped me off at my cousin’s house to spend some time with the family. My mom and dad had come up from Miami. We all cut a cake and celebrated my two goddaughter’s birthdays (since the dates are so close and they actually LIKE having their parties together), and then we all gathered together for a very fun, very enjoyable game of Charades for Dummies. Yes, yes… apparently we are dummies, because some of us sucked at acting out the clues. We kept bugging my mom because she couldn’t figure out how many syllables were in each word. LOL.

After hanging out there for a while, I took the train down to Miami with my parents, and the night was pretty standard. I watched TV, ate dinner with them, and just hung out in what was once my bedroom and is now… an office/sewing room/spare bedroom. LOL.

Then, the next morning was the baptism. My best friend Chris has a few brothers; the eldest one, Brian, and his wife, Janine, were baptizing their baby girl Isabella. The baptism and mass were held in Chris’ church, which was a very… interesting experience. I’ll just say I much prefer Catholic masses; Latin hymns and ceremonial garbs evoke a lot more emotion in me than sitting in a church/lounge with a live band playing in the back. *shrug*

After that, I went shopping with my mom. I bought a bunch of earrings, and some cute shirts for work. While we were in Spencers’ she FINALLY commented on my new piercings. LOL. She asked me, “So when did you get those done?” I tell her, “Last Tuesday.” She just rolled her eyes… and that’s it! Haha. My other family members were telling me, “Oh she’s gonna flip out.” Well… hooray to my mom for proving them wrong. Later on in the evening, my parents drove me to the train station, and I was on my way home.

Now, on to what has been happening recently.

I give up on my car. It has been a downhill battle for years with me constantly on the losing side. Recently, its newest problem is the water pump; broken to the point where the car is once again, practically undrivable. After a few two truck trips and an estimate from my usual mechanics, I decided I am not going to fix the car anymore. I refuse to put any more money into that rotten lemon of a car. SO, instead, I’m looking into getting myself a new car. I’m hoping to do some car shopping this weekend with the hubby.

Just getting around everywhere has been a hassle. Audi’s car is too low, so with me in the car, it scrapes the pavement all the time. Hence, him driving me to work in his Miata was almost impossible. Fortunately for us, our friends that live near us offered us their SUV while they were away on a business trip. So, we have a mode of reliable transportation until I get a new car. Hopefully, I can get a new one by Sunday afternoon.

Anyway, that’s what’s been going on. I’m tired; I’m gonna try to catch some Z’s, Ciao!

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The good news is: I got a raise. Yep, my boss said he noticed I’d been working really hard lately and that I earned it. What he doesn’t know is the reason why I had been working so hard. Not only did I have to spend $700 to fix my car, the next day I had to put up half the rent. I was left with $26 in my bank account. Granted, this job pays every week so I am assured my balance won’t stay that low for too long. Within a day, I had $400 again. Still, that was painful to look at. Here I am working a 9-to-5, that extends into overtime hours a lot, and I just barely paid my dues. It’s depressing. Thankfully, that raise will help a lot. A LOT.

The bad news: Audi still wants to leave Florida. He and I had a HUGE talk about it yesterday. I told him, “I can’t leave Florida. Not right now. I have a solid job where my boss just gave me a raise, and I could possibly be earning more in the future. I can’t afford to lose this job just because I’ll be trying to decide where I’m gonna live in the next 2 months.” He agreed with that, but still said he wanted to leave.

I told him he needs to seriously think about it more. A LOT MORE. Yes, I was pissed. It’s not fair that I need to uproot my life, a life I need at the time, just because he doesn’t like Florida. I don’t like Florida, either. But now is not the right time for me to leave. If he decides to leave me here with this apartment, fine. But he needs to seriously consider what he’s leaving behind: a woman that loves him that has put up with his mood swings, has stuck around despite his multiple break-ups with her, and has never asked for anything other than his love.

Amongst a lot of other things, I told him, “Do you think another woman is going to have the same patience as me?” to which he replied, “What makes you think there would be any other woman?”… Honestly, I wasn’t quite sure how to take that. Does that mean he feels he won’t be able to get another girlfriend? Or that he thinks I’m the one? I don’t know. I’m still trying process it.

There was a lot of crying, a lot of anger, and a lot of comforting. If nothing else, I am grateful that Audi is a REAL man when it comes to treating me well. He doesn’t just bail on me or act like I’m a leper whenever I feel sad. After all of that, he said he would think about it more. I told him, “You know, this little shithole apartment may not be much, but at least you have a place to come home to with a  woman that loves you.” He said, “I know.”

*sigh* TROUBLE IN PARADISE.

Anyway, I’m off to work today. Need those extra hours, ya know! After that, I’ll be heading over to my cousin’s house since my parents are coming up from Miami. I’ll also be working tomorrow (Sunday) and after that, I’ll hopefully be hanging out with my neighbors to celebrate 4th of July. I hope.

Ciao!

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As if things couldn’t be more fucking hectic and frantic and crazy and every other synonym I could think of, now I need to spend another $700 on my car to fix it. I understand what needs to be fixed and they are things that desperately need to be fixed. But shit, why now when our lease is almost up and the hubby still hasn’t decided what the hell he wants to do; renew the lease or put our things in storage and have us move in with relatives until we move out of Florida? What the hell, man… Now, when I finally have a job that seems stable and is paying me good money, he wants to leave. What. The. HELL. I’m so close to telling him, “I’m renewing the lease, you’re welcome to stay here with me if you like…” It’s not fair to me that now I’m bringing in the bulk of our income and he wants to hightail it out of Florida. One more year wouldn’t kill him, and it would give us time to save up money and move out next year! And not just move out to some shithole, but get us an actual house for cheap (because really, anywhere is cheaper than Florida LOL).

On a lighter note, I went out Saturday night to Ft. Lauderdale to see my ex-boyfriend Eddy’s band Dissever play at the Monterey Club. I was originally going to go with my next door neighbor, but she bailed on me. And of course, Audi the homebody didn’t want to go out anywhere. So, I ended up going by myself. And I am quite glad I did. I got to meet up with Eddy (whom I hadn’t seen in years) and it felt great to re-connect with him, since I’ve known him for almost 10 years. I even bought a Dissever t-shirt and was offered a micro-brewed beer by Dissever’s manager. Sweet.

Right now, I’m on my lunch break, taking the time to write in my blog since it seems I never have time to do so anymore… except when I have something to bitch about. Oh, snap. I guess this is one of those times, eh?

Oh, but I do have some more good news. I don’t believe I’ve mentioned this in my blog, but one of my artworks was chosen to be printed in Ballistic Publishing‘s upcoming book Exposé. This is a very big deal; this book is one of the biggest digital art books in the world, and is seen by big name artists, companies, producers, etc etc. Here’s to hoping this publication will get me some much needed attention.

Anyway, back to work now. Still have a lot of stuff to finish today. Yay. Ciao!

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Yep, that’s the name of the game right now. Seems every little thing in life is out to frustrate, annoy, and torment the living shit out of me. Why? I don’t know. Maybe I was an evil witch in a past life, or some nasty karma is rearing it’s ugly head in my direction. Whatever the reason, I wish it would bloody well STOP already.

I’m tired, too. I’ve been feeling really run down and defeated lately. I don’t feel like eating sometimes, either. I’d just rather stay in bed and not do anything, or say anything… it doesn’t help that Audi has been so busy with his hard drives and computer situation to come and give me some much needed attention. *sigh* What a dumb yutz he is sometimes.

I’m going to my goddaughter’s soccer practice today, again. Hopefully seeing her smiling and happy to see me will lift my spirits a bit.

Gotta get back to work. Ciao (for now).

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Yes, today was one of those days. You know, the kind of day that is just endless excitement, chaos, and hilarity from morning to night? Yea, the kind of day where you’ve facepalmed yourself so much you might just end up unconscious.

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Yes, indeed-y. I’m gonna be busy, busy, busy. After work tomorrow, I’m going to my goddaughter’s soccer game, and from there I’ll be driving down to Miami. I have another doctor’s appointment Friday morning, and my doctor now has the new ultrasound scans from the hospital. Hopefully, tomorrow, I’ll find out if there actually has been any drastic change in the size of the massive fibrous mass in my left boob. I swear, I think that thing gets bigger every day. It’s the size of a ping pong ball now. =( Meh.

I’m going to be staying in Miami for the weekend, so I can spend some time with my family and friends. I haven’t seen some of my friends in almost 4/5 months, so it will be nice to hang out with them again. I’ve so far got plans for Saturday afternoon, and possibly Friday night. However, sprinkled in between, I’ll likely be doing stuff for my job, since there is still a lot of catching up to do. Now that Paul has left Statements to pursue other ventures, we have to buckle down and get shit done until Jon finds a replacement for him. Fun! *sigh*

On a lighter note, the newest Bleach chapter is UH-MAZING. I frickin’ called what would happen, too, which is always such a gratifying feeling. Oh, and the Bleach episodes are finally back onto the canon storyline from the manga. However, they’re taking their sweet, precious time getting to one of the greatest fights in Bleach history: Ichigo vs. Ulquiorra. WOOO! I’m SO stoked.

Anyway, it’s time to start packing my bags for the weekend and start getting ready for bed. Ciao!

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