A quick update on what’s been happening lately…

• One of my co-workers was fired. Apparently while I was busting my hump at work, doing what one is supposed to be doing (you know, working), he was visiting personal websites, doing research on rents in other states, and (to my knowledge) chatting up his girlfriend on the web, all on company time. Mind you, this is just the little I was told. There might have been a lot more he was doing that none of us were aware of, but yea… that pissed me off to all hell. I come to work to friggin’ WORK. I need this paycheck, but apparently he didn’t need it that badly since he didn’t seem to take the job very seriously at all. The funniest thing was that when he first started, I started to feel like they valued him more, even though I had been there longer. LOL.

• Audi finally did remove his name from the lease. Yea… Whatever. I guess we’ll just have to see how long this relationship lasts, huh? *sigh* Lately I’ve been feeling like he wants nothing to do with me. I feel like he’s avoiding me, and even though he says he’s not (the few times I’ve brought it up), the distance he’s giving me is loud and fucking clear. For example, right now he’s gonna go clean one of his old rims (in an effort to make it more salable). But why is he doing that NOW? When I’m home? And I need HIM? He can’t do that during the day when I’m at work (earning a fucking living, by the way)? He has to do it now when I’m here and obviously in need of some TLC? UGH. It pisses me off that even with saying it out loud, he just doesn’t get it. Am I constantly doomed to want my partner more than my partner wants me?

• Ballistic Publishing finally notified me about my copy of Exposè 8. I’ll be getting it in the mail in early September. I’m very excited about this, since being printed in this book is a VERY big deal.

• I got my cartilage pierced as well. And unfortunately, since I simply did not know any better, I got it done at Claire’s. This is apparently a very very VERY big No-No. I found out after the fact that the piercing guns they use cannot be sterilized completely, and that the harsh jerking action of the gun itself could cause nerve damage. Ugh. So yea… lesson learned the hard way. Here’s to hoping I was one of the lucky ones and I don’t have any complications. Well, I should say, any MORE complications. For about a week, I thought my left ear might have gotten infected. But the swelling and redness eventually went away with some Wound Wash Saline and heat compress TLC. Right now, all four new piercings are behaving nicely and look like they’re healing properly. *fingers crossed* I’m planning on getting two more lobe piercings, right above the other two, on my birthday. But this time, I’ll be doing it with a PROFESSIONAL piercer and not at fucking Claire’s. I don’t know if I’ll be getting anymore. I’ve been thinking of getting my right eyebrow, but we’ll see about that.

• I’m absolutely IN LOVE with my new car. So far, everything has gone smoothly with the paperwork and red tape surrounding the owning of this new car. Since my mom works for Liberty Mutual, she was able to guide me in all the necessary insurance paperwork, and one of her co-workers was kind enough to handle all my paperwork. I’m going from no payments on my car, to a helluva alot of payments. Haha. Well, it’s not so bad, really. I’m paying $227 monthly for the car, and about $180 monthly for the insurance. Now… off to make it my own. I’m trying to find something cute and VERY lightweight to hang from the rear view mirror. In my T-Bird, I had a little plush bunny rabbit finger puppet, but I left that behind with the car. As much as it pained me to do so, I had to. That, along with the car itself, brought back too many memories of the past. I need to move forward and not look back. I’ll probably go to Walmart or Target tomorrow and see if I can find anything. I did manage to buy a sun visor for the front windshield today, though.

I can’t really think of anything else to discuss. *sigh* I’m gonna go vent my frustrations by killing some demons in Devil May Cry 4.

Ciao!

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Oh me, oh my… It has been one CRAZZZZYYY weekend! Let’s begin, shall we?

On Wednesday of last week, I found out it was going to cost another $300 to fix the new issue with my T-Bird. This was after I had the car towed from a friend’s house to my apartment, and then from my apartment to the mechanics. I was fed UP. I resolved at that moment that I wasn’t going to spend another dime on that possessed demon car. I needed to get a new car. What made the situation even more crazy was that Audi’s car was too low (too close to the ground), and with me in it, it only got worse. Thankfully, our friends who own a Trailblazer were out of town on a business trip, and they let us use their car while I got my own car problem solved. That helped immensely. Finally, Audi had no trouble driving me to work Thursday and Friday.

Here comes Saturday. We woke up pretty early, and I was ready to go car shopping. I had already noted a car I’d seen the night before on carmax.com. It was this GORGEOUS 2009 Chevy Cobalt in silver. I just knew from the moment I saw it that I wanted it. So on that morning, we called up Carmax in Boynton Beach, and asked about it. I’m going to condense the next part for you all: We were calling each other back and forth for nearly 8 HOURS. Audi had already driven to Carmax to meet up with the man I had spoken to on the phone, and to reassure him that I was on the way. When I finally made it to Boynton Beach to see and possibly buy the car, it was already 7:00pm. I was mentally and physically exhausted. But no… my night was nowhere near finished.

The paperwork that followed after my arrival took nearly 3 hours to finish. By this point, I was ready for some liquor… that or a very powerful sedative. Audi said I looked like I was about to go into a panic attack: I was nervous, twitching, and freaking out. LOL. And for damn good reason! I never realized buying a new car would be this nerve-wracking! But thankfully, the man who worked with us at Carmax was a fucking SAINT. Seriously, I never thought I’d meet a car salesman like that in my life. He was sweet, funny, and one of the most patient people ever. He stuck with us until I finally drove home in my new car at 10:30pm. Haha.

The next day came with the hassle of finishing up the insurance paperwork. I also needed to have my mother sign a power-of-attorney form so that she could sign the T-Bird over to me (the car was in her name) so that I could sell it to Carmax. Early Sunday morning, I drove all the way down to Miami (in my new car, teehee!), and after we finished doing everything we could (which wasn’t much, sadly), I hung out with my family. My nephew and brother were there, as well. Around 12:00pm, I started driving back home, but I had a few stops to make first. I needed to drop off the completed paperwork at Carmax, and then from there, I wanted to pass by my cousin’s house. Finally, around 6:00pm, I made it home.

So it’s been a bumpy road, but finally… FINALLY, I can rid myself of that damn car. No more memories, no more troubles, no more. Period. I can start anew with a new car, and in the process, continue breaking away from parts of my life that I don’t want to be reminded of anymore.

I’m gonna go get some shuteye now. Ciao!

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I drove back to that same Goodwill I spoke about in a previous entry, and managed to find three more CD’s worth buying:

This sampler has songs from Front Line Assembly, Controlled Bleeding, Delerium, Eden, and more. I knew about 5 of the bands on there, and this seemed like a rare find, so I figured it was more than worth the $2.

I love this group, so this was a no-brainer. Their most popular song was “Dirt”, which is on this album.

One of the sexiest women on Earth. Seriously. And her voice? To die for. Check her out, especially when she sings in Arabic. *melts*

I got some bad news today, though. Seems that if I want to stay in this apartment, I need to pay 60 more dollars a month. YEA. $895 for a mediocre apartment that’s right next to a FUCKING SWAMP. They can call it a “nature reserve” all they want, but if it smells like a swamp and it looks like a swamp… So Audi, who has at long last decided he wants to stay with me, is now going to work with me so we can decide whether or not we want to fork over $895 a month for the next year… OR find a new apartment in a better neighborhood and pay the same price or similar. Decisions, decisions.

Around 7:00, he asked me if I wanted to go to Home Depot with him, and I said sure. He and I hadn’t gone out anywhere together for a while. So, I took the opportunity, even if it was just to Home Depot. XD. After we finished there, I asked him if he wanted to go out for dinner. He was all for it, and asked what I was in the mood for. After some discussing and deliberating, we agreed on Outback Steakhouse. I figured this would be a good way to help lift his spirits: by giving him food he loves. Haha. Dinner was pretty normal, and after we got back home, I got on the PS3 and started playing Playstation Home. LOL ADDICTED. Right now, he’s on the PS3 playing Naruto: Ninja Storm. Haha. An 8 year old trapped in a 30-year-old body. XD

Anyway, I am off to get some rest. Ciao!

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So I had a rather interesting weekend, one that was filled with 90% happiness and 10% crap. Not a bad balance, really. I decided I needed a break from the stress and the headaches of trying to balance work with my commissions with my other life responsibilities. SO, I decided to cater to me for a little while.

On Saturday, I went shopping. I drove to Walmart first since I needed some new sports bras. The ones I had were getting too stretched out. I did some looking around in the clothing section, too. I found a pair of jeans that fit like they were painted on me. The tag said $11. I get to the register… they were actually $3. Pay dirt, baby!

My good luck just kept on coming. I found an adorable shirt at Forever 21 for $5. It’s a light pink baby-T with this awesome black lace & feather collar. I also bought an adorable bathing suit style baby-T at Hollister for $5, as well. At Claire’s, I got a killer-looking hat with this trippy skull & crossbones pattern, and I finally bought Devil May Cry 4.

I came home to find that Audi was in a very pleasant mood, and we had quite the wonderful afternoon together. To continue this spirit of cheer and content, I decided to order our favorite pizza; a Papa Johns extra large pizza with extra cheese, pepperoni, italian sausage, and roma tomatoes. This time around, though, the hubby wanted black olives on one half, as well. Really, the night just continued to get better and better.

On Sunday, our friends Arthur and Ellen had a baptism for their baby girl, Abigail. There was a mass first, then the baptism, then there would be a party at Arthur & Ellen’s house. The event went by pretty smoothly, until Audi got mad at an innocent joke I made. Ugh. From there the drama started. Luckily, it was confined to about an hour, and some heavy discussion back at our apartment. Finally, I convinced him to go to the party, stating that there are more impprtant things to worry about than our dumb fight over a dumb joke. His spirit and attitude certainly appeared to lighten up as the party progressed. After we got home, he was back to his happy, loving self. =]

Right now, I am typing this up using my WordPress iPhone app. So, if there’s any mistakes, that’s why. lol. But anyway, I have to go nite nite now.

Ciao!

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The good news is: I got a raise. Yep, my boss said he noticed I’d been working really hard lately and that I earned it. What he doesn’t know is the reason why I had been working so hard. Not only did I have to spend $700 to fix my car, the next day I had to put up half the rent. I was left with $26 in my bank account. Granted, this job pays every week so I am assured my balance won’t stay that low for too long. Within a day, I had $400 again. Still, that was painful to look at. Here I am working a 9-to-5, that extends into overtime hours a lot, and I just barely paid my dues. It’s depressing. Thankfully, that raise will help a lot. A LOT.

The bad news: Audi still wants to leave Florida. He and I had a HUGE talk about it yesterday. I told him, “I can’t leave Florida. Not right now. I have a solid job where my boss just gave me a raise, and I could possibly be earning more in the future. I can’t afford to lose this job just because I’ll be trying to decide where I’m gonna live in the next 2 months.” He agreed with that, but still said he wanted to leave.

I told him he needs to seriously think about it more. A LOT MORE. Yes, I was pissed. It’s not fair that I need to uproot my life, a life I need at the time, just because he doesn’t like Florida. I don’t like Florida, either. But now is not the right time for me to leave. If he decides to leave me here with this apartment, fine. But he needs to seriously consider what he’s leaving behind: a woman that loves him that has put up with his mood swings, has stuck around despite his multiple break-ups with her, and has never asked for anything other than his love.

Amongst a lot of other things, I told him, “Do you think another woman is going to have the same patience as me?” to which he replied, “What makes you think there would be any other woman?”… Honestly, I wasn’t quite sure how to take that. Does that mean he feels he won’t be able to get another girlfriend? Or that he thinks I’m the one? I don’t know. I’m still trying process it.

There was a lot of crying, a lot of anger, and a lot of comforting. If nothing else, I am grateful that Audi is a REAL man when it comes to treating me well. He doesn’t just bail on me or act like I’m a leper whenever I feel sad. After all of that, he said he would think about it more. I told him, “You know, this little shithole apartment may not be much, but at least you have a place to come home to with a  woman that loves you.” He said, “I know.”

*sigh* TROUBLE IN PARADISE.

Anyway, I’m off to work today. Need those extra hours, ya know! After that, I’ll be heading over to my cousin’s house since my parents are coming up from Miami. I’ll also be working tomorrow (Sunday) and after that, I’ll hopefully be hanging out with my neighbors to celebrate 4th of July. I hope.

Ciao!

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As if things couldn’t be more fucking hectic and frantic and crazy and every other synonym I could think of, now I need to spend another $700 on my car to fix it. I understand what needs to be fixed and they are things that desperately need to be fixed. But shit, why now when our lease is almost up and the hubby still hasn’t decided what the hell he wants to do; renew the lease or put our things in storage and have us move in with relatives until we move out of Florida? What the hell, man… Now, when I finally have a job that seems stable and is paying me good money, he wants to leave. What. The. HELL. I’m so close to telling him, “I’m renewing the lease, you’re welcome to stay here with me if you like…” It’s not fair to me that now I’m bringing in the bulk of our income and he wants to hightail it out of Florida. One more year wouldn’t kill him, and it would give us time to save up money and move out next year! And not just move out to some shithole, but get us an actual house for cheap (because really, anywhere is cheaper than Florida LOL).

On a lighter note, I went out Saturday night to Ft. Lauderdale to see my ex-boyfriend Eddy’s band Dissever play at the Monterey Club. I was originally going to go with my next door neighbor, but she bailed on me. And of course, Audi the homebody didn’t want to go out anywhere. So, I ended up going by myself. And I am quite glad I did. I got to meet up with Eddy (whom I hadn’t seen in years) and it felt great to re-connect with him, since I’ve known him for almost 10 years. I even bought a Dissever t-shirt and was offered a micro-brewed beer by Dissever’s manager. Sweet.

Right now, I’m on my lunch break, taking the time to write in my blog since it seems I never have time to do so anymore… except when I have something to bitch about. Oh, snap. I guess this is one of those times, eh?

Oh, but I do have some more good news. I don’t believe I’ve mentioned this in my blog, but one of my artworks was chosen to be printed in Ballistic Publishing‘s upcoming book Exposé. This is a very big deal; this book is one of the biggest digital art books in the world, and is seen by big name artists, companies, producers, etc etc. Here’s to hoping this publication will get me some much needed attention.

Anyway, back to work now. Still have a lot of stuff to finish today. Yay. Ciao!

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The roller coaster of emotions has been climbing steadily upwards; here’s to hoping it plateaus for a little while and stays elevated, eh? Hehe. For the past week, things have just been calm, quiet, and enjoyable. There’s been no drama between me and the hubby, very little drama at work, and I even managed to finish what I consider my best digital painting yet. Just click on the preview image below and it will open in a new tab/window:

There’s really not much else to update on, except maybe that the hubby bought some more gear on eBay yesterday. Here’s to hoping it arrives safe, sound, and in complete working condition. =]

I’m off to watch some Inuyasha, and then get some sleep. Ciao!

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Yep, that’s the name of the game right now. Seems every little thing in life is out to frustrate, annoy, and torment the living shit out of me. Why? I don’t know. Maybe I was an evil witch in a past life, or some nasty karma is rearing it’s ugly head in my direction. Whatever the reason, I wish it would bloody well STOP already.

I’m tired, too. I’ve been feeling really run down and defeated lately. I don’t feel like eating sometimes, either. I’d just rather stay in bed and not do anything, or say anything… it doesn’t help that Audi has been so busy with his hard drives and computer situation to come and give me some much needed attention. *sigh* What a dumb yutz he is sometimes.

I’m going to my goddaughter’s soccer practice today, again. Hopefully seeing her smiling and happy to see me will lift my spirits a bit.

Gotta get back to work. Ciao (for now).

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